Occult Practitioners Only?

I have just began to wonder why I am so driven towards the dark side of high and ritual magick. Initially, I thought this is just where I would begin, and move from there as a starting point. However, that was a number of years ago, and I have become quite adept at manipulating negative intentions and energies. I realize that no magick is inherently good or evil, however some energies can safely be deemed fundamentally light or dark ex. a daemon, not evil, but dark. I feel unfulfilled as a practitioner of high and ritual magick being so one sided. If any one who practices ritual or high magick ex. Wicca, Thelemite etc. even someone who just dabbles has any input or suggestions it would be highly appreciated. Don't get me wrong, I have a basic acting understanding of most laws and principal practices that engage in energy manipulation and deity worship, but I am deeply entwined in dark-to-black magick. About the lightest things I can do are The Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram, and astral projection.